Ozzy + Ofelia is a mama owned boutique in Northern California geared towards modern mamas and their babes. Everything stocked in the shop is handmade by mamas from all over the United States.
Alejandro and I (Aubrey) had been trying for 7 months to get pregnant with our first child. Every month that went by with a visit from ‘Aunt Flo’ or a single line test felt like a lifetime. But in May 2018, there it was. Bold and brilliant as could be.
We bit our tongues and avoided any social media hints until we had our 12 week nuchal translucency screening. The scan came back great, we were ecstatic and decided it was finally a good time to tell the rest of our world.
We spent the next 7 weeks naive in the bliss of what seemed like a perfect, healthy pregnancy. We decided we didn’t want to know the sex of our baby, and that Alejandro would be the first to know during delivery and could announce it to me and the family when he/she arrived. We started building out our baby shower wish list, and I spent hours on Pinterest again, looking for gender neutral baby shower games and decorating ideas. I hunted down my favorite handmade baby clothing boutiques and ordered some neutral clothing for our little one to wear during the first few months of their life.
But our world came crashing down around us during our anatomy scan when it showed multiple chromosome abnormalities that deemed our daughter incompatible with a healthy, pain-free life.
At 23 weeks pregnant, on September 17th 2018, we said our first hello and our final goodbye to our daughter, Ofelia Rose.
She was beautiful, and – to us, she was perfect. She had my feet and her Papa’s hands. Small blonde fuzz on her head. Her nose was a perfect combination of both of ours. Her ears were just like her Papa’s. She was 1lb 8oz and 13” long. She had passed away during labor. They laid her on my chest right away – we have never been so overcome with the mixed emotions of joy and grief.
We cherish those moments and keep her alive through memory every day. We will always be her Mama and Papa. Ofelia Rose will always be our first born child. Nobody, and nothing will ever take that from us. She is a part of us, and so she will remain present, even if it’s only in our hearts.
After the loss of our daughter and an early miscarriage in December 2018, our hopes of becoming parents were starting to diminish.
But, on January 15th 2019, the original due date of our angel baby girl, Ozario (Ozzy) Pheonix was conceived.
– TO BE CONTINUED –